I seriously don’t understand Niran…I really don’t!

He called me today, asking to have lunch with me. Is this a date? This Niran guy has kept me in a confusional state for the past 3 years I’ve known him.

We met in a very weird kind of way and it was instant chemistry all the way. Like me, Niran isn’t married but is dating a sort of friend of mine, Kemisola. I don’t really roll with her like that but we are ‘good’. The only thing really binding me and Kemisola is Niran.

Niran and I obviously have this thing for each other but it hasn’t being explored. Some days I can tell he wants more than what we have, but something keeps holding him back! I can’t figure out what it is…like I want to! Truth be told, I don’t want to know what it is, I just wish he could be more spontaneous than he is.

One time, we are speaking for hours on the phone, just about anything, and other times, I won’t here from him for next few days to months. There was a day I could have sworn he would break up with Kemisola, because that day, the chemistry was at its peak and I could feel the wetness in my panties. We did everything a regular couple would do and yet…nothing! You can imagine how devastated I felt, hoping to hear from him the following day and every other day.

Now, he wants to take me out for lunch! How the hell am I supposed to act towards him when I don’t know where exactly we I stand! I’m scared of pouring out my emotions and then getting nothing in return. Worse still, I feel controlled by him…like I lose my mind when he calls or requests for stuff.

What do I do with these feelings I have for someone who can’t make up his mind about what he wants?

So, what do you guys think?…should I or should I not go for this lunch date? *confused*

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