I just got this mail and luckily for this blog reader, there is still time to publish it.
I really feel her fears and anxiety, but read on before I influence your thoughts!
I have been living a lie for the past 4 years of my marriage. I have a secret that no one, not even my husband knows about. My past is one I am totally ashamed of but I thank God I have given my life to Him.
My husband is a wonderful man who goes out of his way to ensure that I am happy and comfortable. But I am too scared to let him in on my past. I am afraid he may divorce me and I can’t bear to lose him, not ever.
Growing up, I was sexually abused by my maternal uncle and our neighbour when I was 12 years old up until I was 15 years old. I never told anyone about it because these uncles gave me money and bought me gifts. I grew up getting accustomed to giving sex in exchange for money or gifts. This continued up until I was in my university days.
My university days were wild. I met quite a number of men I had sexual relations with, out of which 3 are his male buddies. I am worried because when I and my husband went out for a lunch date, we met 3 of them. I am not sure if they recognized me but 1 of them kept staring at me like he was trying to place my face. I quickly excused myself from their midst in order to escape the embarrassment.
I have been asking myself for how long will I continue to avoid his friends? And who knows who else we may meet that may know me and my past? The past is catching up with me. Advice me please, I am so scared.
*Dear Blog reader, ask for God to strengthen your faith in Him. Ask for courage to do the needful. This is a task you must accomplish because if you leave that story to be told by another, it will change and might end up not being ‘palatable’ to your husband’s ears. Please tell ASAP. If God wills for you and your hussy to be together, nothing can tear you guys apart, not even your secret past*
Over to you blog readers.